I now feel the joules of my labor-
That took the form of resistance-
against the push and pressure to bend-
into a beauty mold made by others-
an emphasis on the outer over in.
Caring less is an external rejection and has not been the bulk of my process. Instead, it has been one of internal expansion- pulverizing standardization.
This about face is more than self reflection. It includes how I view others and acknowledges their intimate connection.
It also embraces the choice to feed the beast of beauty. I have in my own way and can confirm that exterior manipulations have the ability to grant us the confidence we need to proceed- regardless of where that stems from. I keep this complexity close, and at the end of the day it all takes courage.